Headlights (Feat Nate Ruess) ☆ Headlights (Feat Nate Ruess)

Mom I know I let you down
And though you say the days are
happy
Why is the power off and I’m
fucked up
And mom I know he’s not around
But don’t you place the
blame on me
As you pour yourself another drink
I guess we are who we are
Headlights shining in the dark
night I drive on
Maybe we took this too far
I went in headfirst
Never thinking about who what I
said hurt in what verse
My mom probably got it the worst
The brunt of it but as stubborn
as we are
Did I take it too far
Cleaning out my closet and all
them other songs
But regardless I don’t hate you
cause ma
You’re still beautiful to me
cause you’re my mom
Though far be it for you to be
calling my house was Vietnam
Desert Storm and both of us put
together can form an atomic bomb
Equivalent to Chemical warfare
And forever we can drag this on
and on
But agree to disagree
That gift for me up under the
Christmas tree don’t mean shit
to me
You’re kicking me out It’s 15
degrees and it’s Christmas Eve
little prick just leave ma let
me grab my fucking coat
Anything to have each other’s
goats why we always at each
others throats
Especially when dad he fucked us
both
We’re in the same fucking boat
You’d think that it’d make us
close nope
Further away that drove us but
together headlights shine
A car full of belongings
Still got a ways to go back
To grandma’s
House it’s straight up the road
And I was the man of the house
the oldest
So my shoulders carried the weight
Of the load
Then Nate got taken away by the
state at 8 years old and
That’s when I realized you were
sick and it wasn’t fixable or
changable
And to this day we remained
estranged and I hate it though but
I guess we are who we are
Headlights shining in the dark
night I drive on
Maybe we took this too far
Cause to this day we remain
estranged and I hate it though
Cause you ain’t even get to
witness your grand baby’s growth
But I’m sorry mama for Cleaning
Out My Closet at the time I was
angry
Rightfully maybe so never meant
that far to take it though cause
Now I know it’s not your fault
and I’m not making jokes
That song I no longer play at
shows and I cringe every time
it’s on the radio
And I think of Nathan being
placed in a home
And all the medicine you fed us
And how I just wanted you to
taste your own but
Now the medications taken over
and your mental states
deteriorating slow
And I’m way too old to cry that
shit’s painful though
But ma I forgive you so does
Nathan yo
All you did all you said you did
your best to raise us both
Foster care that cross you bare
few may be as heavy as yours
But I love you Debbie Mathers oh
what a tangled web we have cause
One thing I never asked was
where the fuck my deadbeat dad was
Fuck it I guess he had trouble
keeping up with every address
But I’d have flipped every
mattress every rock and desert
cactus
Own a collection of maps and
followed my kids to the edge of
the atlas
Someone ever moved them from me
That you could bet your ass’s
If I had to come down the
chimney dressed as Santa kidnap
them
And although one has only met
their grandma
Once you pulled up in our drive
one nights
As we were leaving to get some
hamburgers
Me her and Nate we introduced
you hugged you
And as you left I had this
overwhelming sadness come over me
As we pulled off to go our
separate paths and
I saw your headlights as I
looked back
And I’m mad I didn’t get the
chance to thank you for being my
Mom and my Dad
So Mom please accept this as a
tribute I wrote this on the jet
I guess I had to get this off my
chest
I hope I get the chance to lay
it before I’m dead
The stewardess said to fasten my
seatbelt I guess we’re crashing
So if I’m not dreaming I hope
you get this message
That I’ll always love you from
afar cause you’re my mama
I guess we are who we are
Headlights shining in the dark
night I drive on
Maybe we took this too far
I want a new life one without a
cause
So I’m coming home tonight well
no matter what the cost
And if the plane goes down or if
the crew can’t wake me up
Just know that I’m alright I was
not afraid to die
Oh even if there’s songs to sing
my children will carry me
Just know that I’m alright I was
not afraid to die
Because I put my faith in my new
girl so I never say goodbye
cruel world
Just know that I’m alright I am
not afraid to die
I guess we are who we are
Headlights shining in the dark
night I drive on
Maybe we took this too far